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Saturday, January 31, 2004
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TAM's JANUARY 2004
2004... The year has just begun... only a month has past... and i can't wait for the year to be over!
It's a wonder how so many things can happen within such a short period of time. Joy, Tears, Fear, Shocks, Surprises, Excitement, Worries, Confusion, Crappiness, Frustrations... it's all happening to me.
The year started from way down there. Actually, even lower than down, wherever that is.
I read somewhere that when you're really sad and it hurts real deep, the tears just won't flow. Instead, the opposite will happen... you'll laugh... really laugh... laugh it all out. This happens because our brains is unable to process things right... the emotions are too strong to control. It'll take some time for the wires to be connected properly. Only then would the tears come. Then the facts will finally hit you... BAM! I guess that explains what have been happening to me lately. I could never explain the laughters. I knew they weren't for real, but i couldn't hold them back. They just burst out of me. It's something i had no control over. The tears were somewhere in there with all the broken pieces that are left behind. 26 days have passed... and the fort has finally crumbled. Tears gushed out like an opened floodgate.
A loved one i truly admire. The unconditional love that she showered on me... i can still feel. Her tender touch never fails to send a special kind of warmth through me. She endured all my mischiefs and love me still. Those smiles she always flash no matter what. Though hard of hearing, she always heard my cries and responded to them in an instant. Not well-educated but she has taught me a great deal. Words that came from her were so pure and true. The tastes of the food she made still lingers on. Many flowers can make a beautiful garland, and many good deeds can be done by one born human.
My grandmother was born into this world to make a difference and she had to go now that her chores are through. I will always remember you Mama. Saya selalu ingat Mama.
Then there's someone else who owns my heart. I wish i could spend more time with him. He will feel much better with my presence... that i know for sure. This is when he truly need me. But what can i do? I'm torn apart. Torn between two. Loved ones at home won't let me go. Another whom i love deeply needs me too. I can't bear to leave either but i'm just a single person... not two. A decision i need to make... a tough one too. Then there comes another problem... school. It makes things even more complicated than it already is. The thought of quitting school ever crossed my mind. I mean... what's school when you've got family to worry about? Duh... like of course my loved ones will get the priority. They are ranked right on top... way up there... way way up there!
Oh yes... school... haiz... don't even want to talk bout it. I shall skip this topic.
Friends. There's a lot of changes in this area. A lot have been happening i would say.
Uh-hum... i shall start with YOU! hmm... it's the last day of January and yes tomorrow will be the 1st of February. Keeping your promise? Surprises you've presented to us... and we're accepting it just fine. Don't worry too much. Things are fine... and yes... she's accepting it too. Everything's okay... just spend a little more time with us. Miss you so much! *if you still dunno who you are... then you're a major toot*
Darlings... i really miss our jups "excursions" as just the four of us. Hope we'll have one real soon.
A dear friend from far away. It was just a piece of paper with words in a little silver box but that made my day.
OK... that's my January 2004....
just wanna take this opprtunity to tell all you people that i love you lotz!
take care!
*huggiez*
__________~*~SpRiNg * tAmZ~*~__________
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