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Monday, May 24, 2004
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Heart of Crystal
What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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I am a tree, a young mango tree. A tree that sways and shades anyone who comes close. fruits i have aplenty all year round, some like it half-riped and some like it fully-riped. however they like it, they just pluck it, nothing i can do. being the little tree i am, i feel like i need the support of a tall, strong, firm tree. a big tree i wish could be near me all that time, shading me from the scorching sun and help me shade those under me as well. the fruits i thot would rot under that burning sun and so i wanted them protected too.
a tree i saw, looked just as tall as me in the distance but that distance grew nearer and a tall tree emerged. i thot it would shade me but it didn't and he explained that he couldn't come too near. as much as he would love to, i needed that sunlight to grow. he would not only be taking away my sunlight but also the water at our roots, had he come too close. i was told that i was too young and i needed to grow. someday, i'd grow to be as tall as this fellow tree, our branches would meet, and we would be soaking that sunlight together with our roots still far enough for sufficient water.
thinking back... yes... coming too close would only hurt me. maybe that big tree is right. but growing up is an awfully long time but of course it's not as long as never. i can wait. i hope so. he said he would wait. i hope that's true too.
__________~*~SpRiNg * tAmZ~*~__________
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Wednesday, May 12, 2004
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It all started at paradise...
first night-- he wouldn't even notice me i thot.
the next day he smiled-- but everybody there did... so what i thot.
then the wink followed and the little greetings-- big deal... i didn't even know his name and i'd probably never know i thot.
limbo nite... his name just stood out-- well... it's not like he introduced himself to me... will i get to see him again i thot.
Charming is the word to describe him that nite-- it'll always remain this way... me stealing glances at him in a little corner i thot.
that very same nite thots filled my mind and a letter i wrote-- i'll never have a chance to give it to him with my parents alwaes so close and i'd probably never have the courage too i thot.
on that last day... circumstances led us to introduce ourselves and we talked-- i only have a few hours... it ain't gonna change things i thot.
whew! parents away... plucked up my courage... handed him the letter-- that's the end i thot.
saw him hiding in a corner... secretly reading the letter-- there goes... he's never gonna talk to me again i thot.
for a long time he went missing... nowhere to be found-- he was definitely avoiding me i thot.
he appeared again... and called to me to go over-- won't be anything good i thot.
a serviette rose he gave me-- some kind of consolation i thot.
then a letter i receive-- oh no! definitely rejection i thot.
invitation to the beach-- the last few hours... he's making it a dream come true... but this dream will be over when i return home i thot.
the letter... he likes me?-- impossible! probably just flirting i thot.
a letter i sent when i got back home-- he's not going to reply i thot.
another letter and a photo frame i made-- ain't gonna expect anything i thot.
2 months later... and a letter from him-- i'll reply but this is gonna remain as it is... penpals? i thot.
it came as a complete shock... few days before Valentines... be his girl?-- a long-distance relationship i can never handle i thot.
the writing continued... letters exchanged-- this would slowly come to a stop someday... i'll never hear from him or see him again i thot.
trips i tried to plan to meet him again-- somehow or another... it was just made impossible... just not fated i thot.
a phone call i made... first time-- the second wouldn't be anytime soon... probably on his bdae at the end of the year i thot.
bangkok... at the end of the month... i could meet him there then-- tried... failed... time to give up... i'll never meet him this hols i thot.
asked my aunt... she said ya... mum booked trip-- too good to be true i thot.
2nd phone call... never expected it to be so soon... his trip delayed-- knew it was too good to be true... i'll not be able to meet him i thot.
to bangkok i'm heading... will be able to meet him for one nite... i'll see him again... -- what am i supposed to think now?!
__________~*~SpRiNg * tAmZ~*~__________
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Monday, May 03, 2004
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I Will Never Know
It is scary that feeling
When it comes to life
Right in front of my eyes
I blink away
Thinking it is fake
But no I am wrong
It is the reality
It shouts back
I do not know
I wish I knew
But then it whispered that
I will never know
Then somewhere I hear
A voice that belongs
To a perfect angel
But beneath her wings
Blood prevails
The purity obliterated
And the horrible reality
I see it again
I do not know
I wish I knew
But then it whispered that
I will never know
I hid myself in fear
Not wanting the world
To see the inner me
Several hands reached out
For me but I was engulfed
In my own misery
I tried to snap back
Tried and still trying
I do not know
I wish I knew
But then it whispered that
I will never know
Yet there is something
I feel deep within
And I am grateful
For its sole existence
I would not know
Where I would be
If that has never happened
Ever in my life
But what am I doing?
Using a sword
To slash it again and again
As it seeks to come nearer
I pierce into the heart
And kill my only happiness
Leaving myself to tears
How foolish I can be
I can't express this
What made me into this?
I need to know
I scream
I cry
Nothing I can do
For they have all
Taken me over
And yet
I do not know
I still wish I knew
But I will never know
The constant whispering
The haunting that continues...
__________-HER-__________
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