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Friday, July 16, 2004
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The Joy Within
Shutting her eyes...
Entering the dark room
That had "ALONE" inscribed
At the black door
The silence was deafening
A sense of eeriness
Crowding the walls of the room
Her heart racing too fast
While her pace softened
The weaving art of a creature
Hung loose over the air
She felt strangled
As she walked through them
A bitterness choked her throat
Then a frozen posture
Stole the interest of her eyes
A 10-year-old girl
Her body tangled among the fine art
That painted the room with gray
Unkempt hair portrayed her untouched feelings
Abandoned with aloneness
Tightly clutching her legs
Her head rested on her knees
With weary and fear
As sadness triggered her eyes
To eclipse herself away from elation
From people and their love
Yet her name Joy
Suddenly the fear ceased
She drew closer to Joy
A single touch
But Joy sat still
Refusing to see who it was
Unanswered
"Repeat my words," she said
And she said with long pauses
As her eyes remained shut
Visualizing...
'I'm sorry for leaving you behind,
For having to blame you
For things you never did.
I'm sorry I let you down
And never picked you up
I did not know what to do
And my only escape was to
Leave you behind nine years ago
Now I am here to carry you back
To take you where I am now
I will never leave you again
I'm sorry'
Joy moved and looked up
It seemed like the first time
In the past nine years
She held Joy's hands
A sudden tinge of joy
Filled her soul
The first touch of her Joy
"Now leave the dark room with her," she said
Holding her hands tightly
She led Joy to the doorway
The light blinded Joy
But a smile was slowly drawn
As Joy and she walked out
Of the dark room
She teared constantly
A sense of guilt
For betraying Joy
All these years
Restricting the opportunities
Of allowing Joy to grow with her
Suppressing her regrets
She brought Joy to the world
To the real world
"Take a deep breath and open your eyes," she said
She could not open...
The dark room
Haunted her
The guilt
Stabbed her
The pain
Pierced her
Tears
Tears
The regrets
Weakened her
"Come on slowly...take a deep breath," she repeated
And I, the she,
Opened my eyes
Joy opened hers too
For the first time
She felt recharged
I felt Joy within myself
And I smiled
As tears flowed
I felt whole
With Joy...
Joy and I
Have reunited
I have promised to grow
With her
My lost inner self
My Joy
And I...
Ok I know this is a highly confusing material... I just got the idea in my mind... It sure feels great to find your lost inner self...
P.S: Special thanks to Ms Belinda Chong!!
__________-HER-__________
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If
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~
Jim Rohn
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