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Sunday, October 31, 2004
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Running Crazily In My Mind
I have a number of things running in my mind...
In no particular order...
Random and weird...
Guess it is the too-much-of-thinking time
1. Forever
What stays forever?
Somehow forever's always die off
In all context
Nothing stays forever
Why?
Yet the word's existence
Perhaps its a form of hope
Forever
Forever
Even life isn't forever...
Everything ends
I fear...
2. Celebration time
Deepavali + Christmas + New Year
No one is excited
No changes or anything
No re-unions
No happiness
Plainly, nothing to look forward to
For this deepavali
Strange but true
No longer the shopping for clothes
No longer the making of cookies as a family
No longer the visiting of relatives
No longer the same
3. My late cousin
I dream about him the other day
About how he passed away
Scary and painful
I miss him alot
We normally celebrate his birthday
And new year together on 1st Jan
He would be 24 next year
Working and maybe with a girlfriend
Or even about to get married or something
I miss him so much
He was quite close to me
Cuz most of my cousins didnt like him
Maybe I pitied him
Cuz he is always left alone
Then I would play with him
I miss him....
4. God
Hmm...
Somewhere something is missing
I don't know what
But I sense it
I know this is weird
But I am missing Him
Hmm...
Distance?
I just wish He intervenes somehow
Into my family...
5. Family
I miss my family
6. Friends
We hardly get to meet each other
Thanks to SIP
But last friday was nice
Wish we could have more and more of those times
Guess its about testing our friendships
Really difficult
But I really hope that we can keep our friendship strong
All through our education, then career
Then marriage if there is, then children
And etc etc
Take care
Btw, where shall we meet the next time to eat?
Bwahahah
7. HER!
WOW! Finally realized how to treasure the 1hr
That I get to spend with her during lunch
Haha..well yes it is true..
Actually less than 1hr
Don't always get to spend much time as before
Thanks to SIP and of course US - 2 sleepy heads
Although I would say she is often sleepier than me
Alot of realization going on about us
The obstacles never seem to end
Holding on on each other
They said it was wrong
It was impossible
It was a contradiction
Yes.. So for all that
We are still loving and holding on
Cant wait for 15/01
Miss you!
8. Woof! Woof!/ Rainbow
I want a woof woof!!!!!!!! Pleaseeeeeeeee!!
I want!!! I want!!!
Btw, I saw a beautiful rainbow the other day
So nice!
When I fell asleep at my office,
I dreamt about it
Hahaha
But it was so nice!!
9. 10 minutes
Just 10 minutes needed
To walk away
To say Goodbye to everything
To give up
On what I have been trying to work out
All these while
But why can't I do it?
Pick up everything I discovered
And pretend like nothing happened
OR!
Confess everything that I discovered
Pack up and leave
Forget about everything
But then I need to rob a bank first
Cuz I need $$$
Arghhh
I am trapped!
10 minutes...
Should I walk away?
10. Death
Someone I know is so scared of death
And he is taking all that he can
To keep himself healthy
And get lots of money
And I am like huh?
So I started thinking
Am more scared of losing someone
But not death itself
Strange...
I wonder if he is okay
If he is seeing someone
Hahaha
Strange...
He seems upset
But I can't get close to him for some reason
Like he has the "Out of Bounce"
On his head
Maybe I should approach him
Ask him out
So weird...
Don't think he will
11. Wedding Gowns
My mum always tell me
That when I was young
I always looked out for shops
That sold wedding gowns in particular
I used to tell my mum
Which one I wanted for my wedding
*LOL*
Now I have lost interest
Wait! Before you start thinking
Its not because of HER!
I lost the interest a few years back
I used to draw and design wedding gowns
Although I don't know where the book is
Marriage is like a gimmick nowadays...
Well...after all
There is no room for same-sex marriages here
Hmmmm
12. Joy
I miss her
I don't think I am keeping in touch with her
Or consciously taking efforts to look into her feelings
I feel haunted
By everything that I have to deal alone
It is so unfair
A lot of things make me go into the past
It could be a simple girl crying
Or a scar on someone
Sucks...
How do I move on?
Bottomline:
I am confused...
Maybe my darling is right...
I can't be left alone
Then I would 'kill' myself with my thoughts...
Oopz!
__________-HER-__________
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~
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