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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
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As The Year Ends - 2004
Yet another year ending. How fast can Time fly. The fear of what the following year would bring sets in, just like how I feel at the end of every year.
2004 was a year filled with discoveries. WOW! 2004 has transformed me into a whole new different person and I don't care if people like this new me so yea live with it. Actually its more like some old part of me has been suddenly found and people didnt really know about this earlier. And when this part of me blooms again, they find me different.. but its was just the undiscovered me.. *confused now* hehe
am beginning to appreciate life. really. Beginning to see the joy in the clear blue sky, the hopes portrayed by a rainbow after a rain, the determination of someone lesser off than me, the love of God and every single thing suddenly takes on a new meaning. I don't know but call it strange if you want to.
God. Can proudly declare that I found Him after desperate years of search. There is so much I feel about God now, I only wish i could share it with my family. Its difficult and like she said its better to shut my mouth on certain joys.. Ever since 120404, I feel more closer to God and its a whole new spiritual experience I cant explain in words. All I know now is that I have lots to build up on my spiritual aspect and am willing to walk through it all...:) its amazing..
Joy. What can I say about her? It was scary finding her again this year...after all these years. But yet some joy. There is lots more about her I know. I don't know if I should ask. Or is it better to leave the unrevealed locked? And its difficult to explain it to anyone cuz it is just difficult to understand Joy and Me..ARGHHH! I miss her and because I don't keep in touch with her often she appears at the wrong times.. I do know that part of her influence is taking over me for this few months.. But finding Joy again, the discovery itself, was something I wldn't want to experience again...or maybe I just meant that I don't want to lose her again.
Special. Life has changed since she held my hands. There is so much of things I learnt from her - 1. PATIENCE!! I am truly alot more patient than before..in fact that word never existed in my dictionary..gosh and I learnt 2. abt God, 3. abt my emotions and thoughts on how to control them..4.how to deal with my problems at home, 5. abt Joy, 6. abt smiling truthfully...that was lesson no #1 actually, 7. abt something-else-I-am-not-going-to-say-what-here-cuz-erm-am-shy *blush blush*, 8. abt FOOD!!!..I learnt to eat hot dogs which I hated my entire life and sushi which I still hate, abt strawberries dipped in chocolate/ whip cream (WOO!), abt marshiemellows, abt who-knows-what-else-we-pigged-out, 9. abt the love that exists in a family, 10. abt the efforts to take to save a friendship, 11. abt so-so-so-many-many-other-things-la! there is so much that we shared and I pray there will be more to come..
Family. Certain things may have brought us closer. We had little special moments that I wld treasure.. like the pre-Dad/Sis Birthday Celebrations which was such a wonderful experience until I screwed it up on that very day..*sigh* then Xmas which was so nice!! I really enjoyed that day..juz had to control my tears from falling on that very day..n sitting down together to open all the prezzies! it was nice.. perhaps the coming yr wld bring abt more of such things..
Friends. I don't know..graduation and all..abt 12 weeks more for school to end or sth like that. hmm..am scared.
Me. I am happy that I am alive. Today, I like what I see in the mirror.I have changed so much... I do know that some of the changes in my life may not please everyone..
2005 - Another year ends swiftly. There is a new beginning to look forward to. New dates will be remembered. New memories filled. Am NOT looking forward to 1. Graduation 2. Working 3. Being 20.. Am looking forward to 1. New & better changes at home 2. A more complete Me 3. Moving closer to Him 4. Growing with her 5. Stronger friendships 6. Thinking lesser..
tata 2004..
__________-HER-__________
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