We receive in exchange a wealth of keepsake impressions.
How strange - no one can ever take away what is no longer ours.
It's a paradox.
Indeed, how strange.
To hold memories within our hearts
And not being able to feel the same way
As we once did, that moment
Which we may have not cherished
Passed away, now a memory created
Sometime locked in a diary
Or camouflaged in the stanzas of a poem
And the yearning for the memory
To reform into reality appears once again
When the written words are read after a long time...
And yes, the irony of it all
No one can take away these
That is no longer ours
To close chapters in life
Would simply mean opening new chapters on memories
However, not as simple as it sounds
But accepting the closure and moving on
Is yet another thing altogether
Life is filled with endings and beginnings
If things are not allowed to end
There would not be any beginnings
But its more often the beginnings that we do not want
That make the endings so difficult
How easy it is today to pretend to smile?
How easy it is today to tell someone that 'I'm doing fine'?
How easy it is today to deny the feelings and walk on?
How easy it is today to lie that the tear is one filled with joy?
How easy it is today to be so close to the one you love yet far apart?
The worst feeling in the entire world
That beats the feeling of being in love,
And not being loved in return
Is the feeling of missing someone
Who is no longer yours and will never be
Its like telling yourself that you are fine,
You are moving on, you are sort of happy in a way
And then some quote; some TV show; someone in the streets;
Some place; some food; some song
Reminds you of the person
And you are back to square one again
Just when you look away
This person comes back and say
"I miss you too"
And leave you all confused
For some other, if only at least that happens
Perhaps they could find their paths
To the right way to smile once again
Am I lucky in that sense?
Or am I more miserable?
Part of a poem, Fireworks, I wrote sometime ago:
I shut my eyes to reflect
The beauty of the fireworks at the back
With her smiles that surrounds
The dark sky nowhere found
- 20th January 2004-
Maybe you will never see the Autumn season again... but wait that would risk the season of Winter as well... no these two seasons will not be gone forever, they were previously stolen and now returned without their hearts in place...they are just lost in the mean time...
Basically they preferred to be stolen than returned without their hearts... There is still hope.. 2 souls could actually help...
