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Friday, October 28, 2005
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Where Am I?
There were times when I could just simply look into your eyes
And the words of my soul can be read by your twinkling shines
The tone of my voice could draw the emotions I felt
And to your ears you were able to separate my joys in truth
That I falsely painted with snippets of giggles
Those times where I suddenly need not feel any anxiety
You took them all away with a single touch, a single hug, a single kiss
But now, I cant express myself
I cant open my soul to you, like there is some kind of emptiness somewhere
Or rather like I am locked, burning within the walls of hell
I have become unexpressable, suppressed in the torture of my own
My previous self created world is forming again
The colours fading, my rainbows destroyed by the dark clouds
The way the raindrops fall pricking into my skin as tears fall
An enclosure of pain that you can no longer kiss away
That I am causing myself to drown in, like there is no halt
No hinderance, nothing to break me free from this
I'm falling back down to where I picked myself from the other time
I learnt to hate to hide but now I still hate but yet I hide
I don't see her again in the mirror, stolen and ripped apart
Feeling so much inside, I'm overwhelmed, a war in my head
Blood blood blood - the sudden desire of its scent
Oh no! Oh no! I blind right into the circles of self-hatred
Deafened within the silent screams of my inner being
Vacuumed into the virulent world of nothingness
The words I speak and write rhyme perfectly into an elegy
All these complications that allow me to escape not
I'm scared of that girl staring straight back at me, of her smile, of her confidence
Who is she who takes me over in the strangest of times?
And who am I who write these poetries of melancholy?
A melange of me - I still have not discovered
Somebody from somewhere please save me...
I don't know where I am leading myself to...
I am losing me...
__________-HER-__________
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Jim Rohn
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